April is ending and so my holidays too, I'm not rushing anymore regarding what i'm doing or not in my spare time. I like the way it simply goes, i don't want to make any unnecessary effort when it's about pleasure.
What i mean here is that i have no agenda to follow and all i'm interested in regarding the music i'm doing is to be satisfied as much as possible with it; Which suppose as well to not do whatever just to do something, i used to do that but it's a long gone useless thing now.
I have been recording some unpublished songs for the last three and something years and deleted the whole bunch of it shortly before sending it to some labels, without regret.
It took too long in my opinion and i ended up a bit confused as time went by, i found those works not relevant anymore, not because i've changed but i had a feeling it was from another me i would have left behind a while ago.
So, as i couldn't get any pleasure with those things it would have been very lame to force myself to support it, playing them on stage and eventually pressing them on a physical media.
It's hardly true to talk good about something that you don't feel for anymore, i'm not saying it was bad, just not spontaneous enough because of the time, probably too long, it took me to do it.
I'm having a normal job, it keeps me balanced and i really like what i'm doing there, because i believe in what we're doing as a good thing, as simple as that.
Therefore, it took me a while to really record in my spare time what i wanted to do, hence the time factor thing.
All this said, i keep doing my things, slower than before, but i'm pleased to do it like this and only hope to keep things going that way.
I'll turn 52 in September, too young to give up yet too old to get delusional.
Because that's how i like it, and because i can.
